It's been raining for the past couple of days. I miss the sun. The sun is the positive thing in my life sometimes. Isn't that sad? I hope the sun comes back soon.
Along with a rainy week comes all the overthinking. These past days have been really bad. I overthink every decision I make and have ever made. Since no one reads this blog, I might as well put them out there because I need to get them off my chest.
I want to take a break from school. I feel dumb. I'm so far behind in the major I want to go into but I don't have the patience or attention span to sit in a class and get work done. I love learning. I really do but I'm too dumb to go to class. I'm tired of wasting money that i'll have to pay back in the end. I know my parents will be disappointed but it's not for me right now. I'm not happy and I just want to be happy.
My love life is not happening right now either. I always end up falling for the people who could care less about me. It just sucks. I'm tired of always being alone.
I feel so alone and empty and tired. I'm always tired and I'm never happy. I'm not happy with the way I look, the way I feel, any of my decisions. I need something and I don't know what it is. But i need it soon. I just want to know someone's there for me.
This is a really depressing post. I'm sorry but I needed to get it out there. No one else seems to ever listen to me. People are way too busy these days. They just don't care. It's sad. It's a sad world.
Seeing on my weather app that next will be sunnier maybe my hopes will pick up.
Well whatever happens, I hope that you all have a great week. You're all an amazing piece of work. You may just be a small little part of the universe but to some people you're a big part of their world.
xx Brooke.
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